Calm Before the Storm: Chapter 3.

Previously:

Judy: 

Musaab

Musaab: 

N3m?

By that time, he unlocked his phone and got up.

Musaab: "ana w Judy bnrou7 Baskin Robbins njeeb ice cream, etha tboun shay erslu lna b group el3aila"

He looked down at me,

Musaab: "yallah goumi"

I found myself automatically obeying his order, I had no other choice. I wore my Abaya and followed him to his car. We both hopped in.

Me: "mu jalsa astw3b wala shay"

Musaab: "tstw3been el7een"

I waited for him to talk,

Musaab: "wsh sweeti ams?"

My heart skipped a beat after he said these 3 words as he turned the engine on.

Me: "wla shay, jlst bl beet"

My heartbeats started to race. I knew it.

Musaab: "umm" he said not believing what I said,

He started driving,

Me: "w ent?"

Musaab: "ana b3d ma r7t mkan, jlst bl beet"

Are we playing games now?

Me: "umm"

Musaab: "etha knti bl beet w ma r7ti mkan, ajl meen elzg eli shftk m3ah ams gdam cafe bl Tahlia?”

He raised his voice and drove so much faster. My heart skipped a beat or maybe two. I couldn't reply. And that's when I realized I lost my very first best friend forever.

Musaab: "ma trdeen?"

Me: "Musaab wein bnrou7?" I asked in a shaky voice.

Musaab: "WSH ELI WEIN BNROU7? ANA JALS AS2LK SO2AL TRDEEN 3LAY, WLA MA SM3TEENI? AGOLIK MEEN ELTBN ELI KAN M3AK AMS? W D5LTI SYARTA W R7TU BGL3TKUM MA ADRI WEIN? HA?"

Me: "Musaab lw sm3t 5ff sr3tk shway wallah el36'eem bgoul lk kl shay"

Musaab: "KLI TBN MA ABI ASM3 MNK SHAY, MN AWL JALS AFKR ETHA ANA FHMT AY SHAY 3'L6 BS MA LGEET TBREER A9LAN! DA5LA SYARTA W T36EENA HUG? SHLOUN AKON FHAMT 3'L6 SHLOUN BTBRREEN ABI AFHAM!"

I teared,

Me: "lw sm.. sm7t Musaa..b wgf 3la jam..b!"

Musaab: "MANI MWGF!"

Me: “6yb entbh la n9dm 3la elagal” I finally said between my teeth and in a very low voice,

He finally parked aside and took a deep breath,

Musaab: "3ndk shay tgoleena?"

I remained silent as I sobbed,

Musaab: "EEH 9E7I EL7EIN W EL3BI DOUR ELMSKEENA ELML3OUB 3LAIHA!"

I took a tissue and wiped my tears,

Musaab: "5wyk?"

I didn't reply,

Musaab: "RDI 3LAY LA TNRFZEENI, 5WYK?"

Me: "e..eeh"

Musaab laughed: "YA SALAM! OPEN MINDED MASHALLAH 3LAIK T6L3EEN M3 5WYK! ZA7FA!"

Musaab continued: "W MN MITA T3RFEENA INSHALLAH 3SHAN T6L3EEN M3AH? KM 9ARLKOM?"

I remained silent.

Musaab: "6RSHA MA TSM3EEN? RDI KM 9ARLKOM YA JUDY LA T5LEENI ASWI SHAY MA Y3JBK!"

Me: "7 sh'hour, bs wallah a3rfa mn 2 yea-"

Musaab: “B3D? W FR7ANA TGOLEENHA? MASHALLAH 7LU! ENTI 3'BYA? WDI AFHM 8SMBELLAH 3'BYA?"

Me: "ana asfa, mar7 a3eedha"

Musaab: "KLI TBN W LA 3AD TKLMEENI ANA MANI O5OUK FAHMA? 6OUL 3MRI A5AF 3LEEK NFS 5WATI JANA W HAIFA BL9'B6! BS 7RAM A3DK E5TI 8SMBELLAH!"

Yep. It's official. I lost my best friend. Forever.

Musaab: "KM 3MR ELTBN?"

Me: "akbar mni b thlath sneen" I took a deep breath, "kubrik" I said in a low voice.

Musaab: "ki4a y3ni ygali b7ba w bgoul oh 3agl 97?"

I didn't know what to reply so I just remained silent until he drove us back to our grandma's house,

The rest of the ride was silent, and obviously not the good silence, I was shaking all the time as my body's temperature became so high, I was thinking of how Musaab looked so angry and scary a few minutes ago. I couldn't take his picture out of my mind. My thoughts were interrupted when Musaab finally turned the engine off and opened his door.

I opened my door and hopped off his car as we both entered the house at the same time. 

Aunt Yasmine: "ha wein el ice cream? Rslna lkum our orders ma shftooha?"

Musaab: "ella bs msakar 3shan el9alat"

Aunt Yasmine: "haw 3’reeba, ma b3d a4n, bagi rb3 sa3a"

Musaab: "madri, shakla elfr3 eli jmbna sakar"

Mama: "5la9 mu mshkla, nrsl Raju b3d el9lat yshouf"

I calmly went upstairs and went to the guests' room. Someone knocked the door and I wished it was Musaab for some reason.

Me: "meen?"

Alia: "ana"

Me: "t3al wsh 3ndi tdgeen elbab?"

She came in,

Alia: "shfeek, sh9ar m3 Musaab?"

Me: "wala shay, he hates me and we're not friends anymore"

Alia: "wsh 9ar Judy e7ki!"

Me: "shafni ams m3 Nasser, w shafni w ana a5ma, gali la tklmeeni abd, ana 3'l6an eni 3daitk e5ti w mn hl kalam"

Alia's jaw dropped,

Me: "same" I said as a tear fell from my eyes.

Alia: "ma 3leek mna ma t3rfeena over protective? 9dgeeni klha km youm w byrj3 yra6'eek"

Me: "marra mb km youm, enti mstw3ba ena shafni da5la syarat wld? Shbswi b7yati ana etha gal l Faisal aw Khalid? Yimken amout”

Alia: “bsmallah 3leik, mara7 ygoul la7d shfeek trah Musaab!"

Me: "eeh Musaab bs ma shfti wjha w 7na bl syara, 8smbellah 7sait eni mub m3 Musaab mn kthr ma kan wjha a7mr, w jals ysoug bsr3a w yd5l been elsyarat, wdi elar6' tnshg w tbl3ni, kraht 7ayati"

Alia: "Judy tstahbleen? Goli el7amdellah hatha awl shay, thani shay la t9ereen nfsya w eli y3afeek, shrayk tnameen el7ein w etha 97eeti tfhamtw?"

Me: "mara7 ntfaham, Musaab ma ybi yshouf wjhi, t5yli 5srt wld 5ali 3shan 5wyi"

Alia: "akeed bykoun m39b ya Judy bs kl elomour bt'hda bs ybeela wgt, la tst3jleen"

Me: "6yb, abi anam"

Alia: "6rda hathi?"

Me: "eeh mfrou9' enha ketha" I let out a light laugh.

Alia: "eeh e6'7ki!" she smiled, "elli yshouf wajhk mn shway ma y3rfk"

I didn't reply,

Alia: "6yb, 5la9 enti erta7i el7een" she smiled,

She left as I laid on the bed and tried to sleep. I woke up around an hour later. I checked my phone but then remembered that the WiFi in my grandma's doesn't reach upstairs.

I went downstairs, and heard my aunts and uncles including my mom talking about some trip.

Mama: "eeh w ma nwgf b Khobar, n6awl 3ala Bahrain"

Aunt Yasmine: "eeh, bs kam syara nrou7?"

Uncle Fahad: "tkfeena 3 aw 4 syarat"

Me: "wsh elsalfa?" I asked curiously.

Mama: "97 elnoum, n3sti?"

Me: "eeh shway"

Mama: "hatha w enti 9a7ya el6'hr"

I awkwardly smiled, and looked for Musaab around the living room. I glanced him staring at me, but he looked away as soon as our eyes met. He got up, and went to the backyard. I followed him.

Me: "Musaab, lw sma7t"

He ignored me and pulled a cigarette out of his pocket, lit it up, and started smoking.

Musaab: "n3m?"

Me: "lw sma7t 5leena ntfahm, ma abi y9eer benna ketha, please, 3shan 5a6r eni bnt 3mtk"

Musaab: "ana 5jlan enk bnt 3mti" he said giving me his back.

Ouch, that was too harsh. I suddenly felt my body becoming hot again and my eyes teared.

Me: "ana asfa" I said as my voice shook.

Musaab: "e7mdi rbk eni ll7een bs jals ag6 klam bs, wla 8smbellah ya Judy etha ma w5rti 3ni btshoufen shay ma y3jbk"

Me: "bs knt abi shsma.. Ntfaham" I said in a very shake voice.

Musaab: "wsh tbeen tgoleen? 5wyi the8a w a7ba w 3adi bytzwjni? Enti 3'bya w a3'ba mnk mafi w ma atwg3 3ndk tbreer 3'er hatha, f lw sm7ti e7trmi nfsk w bkramtk ed5li w la tklmeeni"

He was right, I had no other explanation. I just didn't want to lose him. I quickly got inside and went to the bathroom to wipe my tears before someone notices them.

I faked a smile, acted very normal, and went to the living room,

Me: "wsh salft Bahrain?"

Mama: "bnrou7 Bahrain 56 bukra, ana w 5alatk nbi nrou7 nsawi shopping 3shan zwaj bnt 5alk Haifa b3d shahrain, w mara w7da nrou7 elcinema nshouf movie"

Haifa is Musaab's 25 year old sister. Jana is their sister too but she is still 16.

Me: "oh, okay"

I turned around to see Musaab still smoking in the backyard. I felt so bad. I wish I could go back in time and never go out with Nasser again. I hate seeing Musaab like this. I hate seeing my best friend like this. I hated Nasser at that moment, not as in I don't want to be with him anymore. I just needed a break. I still love him, and it's not his fault. It was completely my choice to go out with him but I suddenly felt so cheap and used. I just didn't want to talk to him for a while. Our relationships seriously needs limits.

I pulled my phone out of my pocket and checked if Nasser replied to my 4 hour ago sent message.

Nasser:

Ela twni gmt

4 hours ago,

Nasser:

Good morning❤️

Weenk?

Judy:

Ahlan

Beet jdti

Nasser:

Oh 97 elyoum jm3a

I ignored him and locked my phone. My phone buzzed,

Nasser:

Meen mz3l el7lu?

He is so chilled, and I'm completely the opposite.

Judy:

Ma feeni shay

Bs jatni el3ma w nfst

Forgive me for lying, God.

Nasser:

Oh

54eelk shay 6yb 3shan trta7een

Slamtk ❤️

Judy:

Eeh I will

Allah yslmk

I locked my phone forreal this time and spent some time with my family. Musaab won't look at my face which made me feel even worse. I hated being in this position.

My mom woke me up the next day at around 12 PM and told me to get ready since we're going to Bahrain. We were in front of my grandma's house at around 1:30 PM where we all gathered to leave at the same time.

Me: "kaif bnrou7?"

Mama: "ana m3 Faisal w Khalid w 5altk Yasmine w bnat'ha bsyara, enti rou7i m3 Musaab w Jana w Haifa b syarta el93'eera, w elbagyeen m3 5alk Fahad w Essam"

Me: "w Alia?"

Mama: "Alia m3ay"

She thought putting me with Musaab will make me have fun, but no. No one knows that he won't even talk to me anymore. My best friend officially hates me people!

I hopped off Faisal's car and went to Musaab's where they were all waiting for me.

Haifa was seated in the passenger's seat right next to Musaab, while Jana and I were seated in the backseats,

Me: "elsalam 3lykum"

They all replied, except for Musaab who was texting and didn't even notice me hopping in, or maybe simply ignored my existence.

We were supposed to go to City Centre first but Musaab's directions were going to Amwaj.

Me: "laish mu ray7een City Centre?" I asked Jana in a very low voice, but Haifa heard,

Haifa: "Musaab ma gltlha? Sorry bs wallah 3la bali galk, awal shay bynzlni Amwaj 3shan bashouf Ahmed hnak (her fiancé), w b3deen bnrou7 City Centre"

Me: "oh, la 3adi, a9ln ana shayftli dress b Riyadh y3ni mob mst3jla, w ma abi arou7 City Centre al7een"

We arrived at around 7 PM. I hopped off Musaab's car with Jana and Musaab, as Haifa had her own directions to meet Ahmed.

We started walking as I pulled my phone out of my pocket to check my WhatsApp, Nasser's chat to be specific, but there wasn't a single notification.

Judy:

Hey weenk?

Nasser:

Bdeewanyt wa7d mn el3yal, enti?

I was just about to reply, but my phone died.

Me: "Jana 3ndk charger?" I asked.

Jana: "la bs Musaab 3nda"

Me: "Musaab"

Musaab: "ha" he said not looking at me,

Me: "mumkin sha7in?"

Musaab: "ma 3ndi" he faced me, "w etha 3ndi a7taja"

Me: "lw sma7t, bs yfta7 w a36eek"

Musaab: "ma 3ndi agoul lk!" he was serious,

It's okay. A9lan I don't want Nasser and I to share details. I'll definitely ask for a break once I get back home.

Jana, Musaab, and I were looking for a good restaurant/cafe to sit in, and that's when I saw someone who looks really familiar. He looked like Nasser. But I wasn't that curious because he told me that he is with his friends. I was about to look away but that's when we had an eye contact and Nasser-look-alike's face expressions changed. Our eye contact took so long and I finally realized it was him. He was sitting with a girl holding hands. I felt disgusted and even more used. I hated Nasser even more and hated the day I volunteered in that event and got to know him. Tears gathered in my eyes, my blood raced, and my stomach ached. I felt so dizzy and literally wanted to die.

Me: "a7taj el7mam" I said as I turned around and completely changed my directions.

I saw Nasser get up and follow me so I ran even faster. I finally entered the first restaurant I faced, I was about to get in but someone held my arm.

Nasser: "lw sm7ti wgfi"

Me: "n3m?" I said in disgust as I looked at him from the top of his head till his toes, "ana 5sart wld 5ali 3shan 5a6r wajhk, bs el6'ahr enk jzma w ma tstahl g6ra mn el7ub eli 36eetk eyah"

Me: "ya weelk tfkr t7akeeni aw tklmni aw 7ta tbrrli, ma t3rfni wla a3rfk ya Nasser w kl wa7d b6reega"

Nasser: "Judy wallah she's just a friend to me"

Me: "w knt t3'ar yom ajls m3 Musaab?" I laughed, "9dg ya 7saft ayami m3ak!"

Tears gathered in my eyes again but I didn't want them to fall. I know Nasser and I've only been together for 7 months, but we were besties before he confessed his love towards me. 2 freaking years and 7 fucking months. Asshole.

I walked away while wiping my tears. Why is this happening to me? First Musaab, and now Nasser, is the worst yet to come? I lost my two favorites in only two days, and God only knows what's coming next.

I went back to where I left Musaab and Jana, acting like nothing happened. Musaab held my hands tight and let us walk forward Jana.

Musaab: "hatha ho?" he almost whispered,

Me: "wsho?"

Musaab: "don't play dumb" he seriously said, "hatha ho?"

Me: "e..eeh"

I hate how shaky my voice is becoming when I talk to him, I get endless butterflies whenever I see his face. I just hate how things vastly changed.

Musaab: "shfti?" he laughed, "3'bya w akbr 3'bya, eng9 3laik bkm klma w mabsou6a ena 5wyk y7bk w 6al3 m3ak, hatha yl3ab 3laik ya mama" he spat, "ams m3ak w elyoum m3 3'airk, laitk 3la elagal 3'l6ti m3 elsh59 el97"

His words felt like a knife in my chest. I wanted him to shut up. I already feel bad about myself and he is not making it any better.

Musaab: "ha nrou7 City Centre 5la9?" he turned around and asked Jana who was walking behind us.

Jana: "eeh, mama dgt 3lay tw tgoul wainkom"

Musaab: "6yb, ent6'reena hna ana w Judy bnrou7 njeeb elsyara mn elparking"

She nodded and I followed Musaab having no idea what's going on. We finally reached his car and I hopped in the passenger seat.

Musaab threw an iPhone charger cable on me,

Musaab: "yallah 7aki 7beeb galbk elplayer w 6mneeh"

I remained silent,

Musaab: "r5ee9a" he said in a low voice thinking that I won't hear him.

I gave him his cable back and pulled my phone out of my pocket and gave it to him,

Me: "shukran, ma abi sha7n, 7ta jwali ma abeeh"

I hopped off the car before he would answer. I slammed the door shut behind me and hopped in the backseat,

Me: "5li Jana tjls gdam" I calmly said while my tears were falling from my eyes,

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