Calm Before the Storm: Chapter 23.

Previously:

Me: "a3rf kl shay"

Musaab: "mt2kda?"

Me: "feeh shay ma a3rfa?"

Musaab: "madri enti es2li"

Me: "Nasser bye, nklm b36' etha hdaina a7sn ketha abad ma r7 yfeed"

Musaab: "wsh esmi?"

I cleared my throat: "g9di Musaab" then coughed,

I felt my heart flutter and ache so bad,

Musaab: "w tbeeni ma asheel hma?!"

And he hung up before I could even explain, he hung up before hearing my response. I fucked up. I fucked up real bad. I swear to God I wasn't thinking of him, he wasn't even on my mind but Musaab freaking asked about him too much until his name came out of my mouth involuntary. I didn't mean it.

I might thought of Nasser a couple of times after our shoufa shr3iya, but I'm one hundred percent over him. I just never thought it would be this obvious to Musaab. And just to clear everything out, when I used to look at Musaab's face before he confessed, I used to remember that day when he pretended to take me to Baskin Robbins then reproached me so bad in his car, and it reminded me of Nasser all this time, and now that the picture in my head is different, it was so hard to deal with it.

I thought about sending him a message on WhatsApp, but I had no idea what to say,

Judy:

Hey

Tra wallah el36'eem ma kan g9di

W wallah mu bbali la Nasser wla 3'eera

Bs mn kthr ma ts2lni 3na glt esma bl3'l6

Musaab:

Glti esma bl3'l6 3'eer w tnadeeni b esma 3'eer

Wa6'7 meen elli mu gadr ynsa :p

Judy:

Musaab la tfhmni 3'l6

Musaab:

Ma fhamt shay 3'l6

Bs twni astw3b enk ma nsaiteeh

Judy:

Nsaita wallah el36'eem!

Shd3wa Musaab la tz3l mn zlt lsan

Musaab:

6yb

Judy:

Wallah el36'eem zlt lsan

You don't trust me lhdrja?

Musaab:

A7d jab 6ari el trust al7een?

Judy:

Musaab please

He went offline,

Judy:

Talk to me :(

Musaab:

Inshallah

Judy:

Wsh elli inshallah?

Musaab:

Aklmk later 6al3 b3d shway w abi albs

And he went offline again. I hate how hard keeping up with my relationship is becoming. Maybe I should just give up and get over it? I needed a space more than anything. Am I really marrying my ex-best-friend who also happens to be my cousin? I wanted to rethink about how I'm going to live my life with Musaab in the same house after our marriage. If this only us over the phone, then how will we act in real life?

I went to take a hot bath, the only way that works with me whenever I feel sad or annoyed. I just hate it when people get me wrong, and especially when the one I love gets me wrong. Musaab.

An hour passed, two, three, four, and even eight hours passed, and Musaab didn't even send a single message. I checked his last seen and it was eight hours ago, it had the last message he sent's time.

Judy:

Are you ok?

He replied half an hour later,

Musaab:

Yeah I'm out

M3 el3yal aklmk etha rj3t

Tbeen shay?

Judy:

La

He read my message and ignored it. I wanted to fight with him so bad but I just locked my phone and threw it on the floor.

Me: "effffffff!" I annoyingly shouted,

 My mom opened the door,

Mama: "bsmallah wsh feek, 9ar shay?!"

Me: "wla shay"

Mama: "a7d yrmi eljwal ketha? W etha enksr?"

Me: "3la zg"

Mama: "klmeeni 3dl, omk ana mub 9deegtk!”

Me: "asfa, bs mt6'ayga shway w abi anam"

I quickly tucked myself in bed and hid my face with the blanket,

Mama: "9li 9lat rbk w nami, mafi noum bla 9lat"

Me: "inshallah"

Mama: "goumi al7een, w erf3i jwalk mn elar6' bukra etha enksr 97ti tbeen jdeed"

Me: "inshallah"

Mama: "wsh 9ayr?"

Me: "wla shay"

Mama: "g9i 3la 3'eeri"

Me: "wla shay yuma bs mt'hawsha m3 w7da"

Mama: "mt'hawsha m3 Musaab?"

I remained silent,

Mama: "eeh wa6'7 a9ln, ma r7 t39been ketha 3shan w7da mn elbnat"

I didn't reply,

Mama: "76i rask w nami, bs etha enti 3'l6ana e3t4ri w etha ho 3'l6an by3t4r, bs la tsheleen hm, kl shay by9'b6 inshallah, mshakl ftrt el56ouba 6bee3ya"

You know nothing, mom.

Me: "thneena 3'l6"

Mama: "w thab7kum elkbrya2 m7d ybi y3t4r, 97?"

Me: "madri"

Mama: "hatha akbr dleel enk tkabreen"

Me: "yuma bnam tkfain mali 5lg asoulf"

Mama: "9li awal, el9lat try7k"

Me: "inshallah"

Mama: "mu ams gayltli btrou7een el spa?"

Me: "ma 7jazt"

Mama: "5la9 ana adg al7een a7jz nrou7 bukra ana wnti shrayk?"

I forced a smiled: "zeen"

Mama: "Allah yshr7 9drk 7beebt mama" I smiled at her as she kissed my forehead and left,

I got up to pick my phone up and I saw a simple scratch on the top of the screen,

Me: "shit!" I whispered to myself,

I left my phone and prayed, brushed my teeth, tucked myself under my bedsheets and slept.

I woke up the next day to the sound of my mom waking me up,

Mama: "Judy, 7jazt elsa3a 1:30 goumi"

Me: "km elsa3a al7een?"

Mama: "12:30"

Me: "haw yuma badri"

Mama: "mu badri, goumi la t5b9een nomk elejaza klha esbou3en"

Me: "zeen"

Mama: "7keeti m3 Musaab?"

Me: "la2"

Mama: "6yb goumi yallah, ant6'rk t7t bagoul l Kelly t9l7 lna f6our"

I got up and went to the bathroom, I washed up, prayed, changed my clothes, then unlocked my phone to check if Musaab sent anything,

Musaab:

Judy

Nmti?

The messages were sent at 3 AM,

Judy:

Eeh knt nayma

Hala?

I left my phone on the bedside table and went downstairs to have breakfast with my mom,

Me: "ween Faisal w baba?"

Mama: "y9loun eljum3a"

Me: "wait elyoum jum3a, mafi gathering?!"

Mama: "bnsweela skip 3shank"

Me: "Allah wsh 9ayr bl dnya!"

Mama: "shfti shloun? Traha mara wa7da bl sana bs, la tt2mleenha kl mara, w etha 5l9na mn elspa bdri bnrou7 lhm"

Me: "mala da3i nrou7"

Mama: "lh da3i w n9, la ta54een wjh"

Me: "sorry nsait ena shay mu8ds 3ndk"

Mama: "a3outh bellah wsho mu8ds, bs lazm marra bl esbou3 njtm3 klna"

Me: "okay, etha 5l9na"

Mama: "7ta lw bl maghrib"

Me: "inshallah"

We finished our breakfast and I went upstairs again to wear my Abaya and grab my bag to leave. My mom and I both got in the car and Raju drove off. I checked my phone to see if Musaab replied to my message,

Musaab:

Ma wdk ntfahm?

Judy:

Ent ma wdk?

Musaab:

:)

Judy:

What?

Musaab:

Elyoum 3ugb el3'da ana wyak bn6l3

Zeen?

Judy:

I'm not coming

Musaab:

Since when it's okay to skip family gatherings?

Judy:

Since today

My mom and I aren't coming

Musaab:

3sa ma shr leeh?

Judy:

3ndna mw3d etha 5l9na bdri jeena

Musaab:

Mw3d wsho

Judy:

Spa

Musaab:

Wgta y3ni?

Judy:

Mama 7jzt, I couldn't say no

Musaab:

6yb mta?
Mani m6wl ana bsafr b3d agl mn esbou3 w abi atfahm m3k

Judy:

Elyoum magdr 6yb

Musaab:

Judy

Judy:

Hala 

Musaab:

9dg wdk nfs5 56oubtna?

Judy:

?

Musaab:

Enti ams tgoleen

Judy:

Etha ma r7 tt3'yr eeh abi nfs5

Glt lk million mara mani mst3da a3eesh m3 wa7d y4krni bl ma6'i kl shway

Get over it ya5i

W etha mu gadr simply tzwj w7da thanya malha ma6'i etha hl shay byry7k

Musaab:

Mafi a7d mala ma6'i

Enti bnfsk you didn't get over him

Ams tnadeeni Nasser ajal? 😂

Judy:

I got over him mn zman

Musaab:

Wa6'7

Judy:

Wsh aswi 3shan t9dgni y3ni?!

Musaab:

Act like it

Judy:

Wsh swait a9ln 3'eer eni glt esma bl3'l6!?

Mn kthr ma t7ki 3na w ts2lni 3na zl lsani

Musaab la t9eer m3gd ketha t4b7ni wallah

Musaab:

Ana m3gd al7een?

Judy:

La ts2lni 3n Nasser abd lw sm7t

Musaab:

3shan ma tfkreen feeh?

Judy:

Ana ma afkr feeh a9ln

Musaab:

Ma tfkreen feeh?

Judy:

Wla y6ra 3la bali

It's been almost two years I'm not that emotional

Etha ma nsaita ma kan wafgt 3laik 76 hl shay bbalk

Musaab:

Aw ymkn wafgti 3lay 3shan tnseena?

Judy:

La wallah?

Musaab:

Jals as2l

Judy:

Wa6'7 en nfsytk t3bana n7ki b3deen

Musaab:

Eeh ejlsi ketha kl ma jeena n7ki glti aklmk b3deen w n7ki b3deen leen tgoum elgyama w 7na ma r6'aina

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