Previously:
Musaab:
Aw ymkn wafgti 3lay 3shan tnseena?
Judy:
La wallah?
Musaab:
Jals as2l
Judy:
Wa6'7 en nfsytk t3bana bklmk b3deen
Musaab:
Eeh njls ketha kl shway aklmk b3deen w n7ki b3deen len tgoum elgyama w 7na ma r6'aina
Judy:
Ntfahm b wsho
Kl ma ntfahm tnglb housha
Musaab:
Bukra bmr 3leek w nrou7 mkan ntafhm feeh
Ma agdr a7ki ketha ana
I ignored his message and we reached the spa. I hopped off the car and got in. I left my bag including my phone inside the locker and tried to enjoy my quality time with my mom.
Musaab picked me up the next day and we went to Bateel again, he ordered a slice of cake and Arabic coffee while I only ordered black coffee.
Me: "please Musaab gbl la tbdi, ana abi aw6'7 lk kl shay mn my point mumkn?"
Musaab: "tf6'li" he said avoiding looking at me,
Me: "madri mn ween abda, wsh akthar shay m6'aygk al7een?" I calmly asked,
Musaab: "wsh t7seen enti?" he was a little mad,
Me: "eni nadeetk b esma?" I innocently asked,
He nodded as he fake smiled, then looked away,
Me: "6ayb awal shay" I took a breath, "b7ki bkl 9ra7a w shfafya okay?"
Musaab: "e7ki"
Me: "bl ftra eli kna ma n7aki b36' feeha, knt a7s ena feeh shay feek yj4bni bs madri wsho, knt kl ma ashouf wjhk yjeeni flashback youm t9ar5 3lay b syartk 3shani 6l3t m3 Nasser, w knt a7awl kthr ma agdr eni a9d 3nk, bs 3shan ma abi elshay hatha elli yj4bni lk yt6wr w ymkn blnhaya a6l3 I was only missing you, as a friend 6b3n" I coughed, "b3deen youm drait enk t7bni 7awlt a3'yr el9oura hathi eli bbali, shway knt a5af mnk, w a5af en byoum tjeebli seerta fj2a w hatha elsbb elli 5lani agoul lk please ma njeeb 6areeh bl shoufa"
Musaab: "wsh d5l hatha b enk nadeteeni b esma?" he raised an eyebrow,
Me: "5leeni a5l9, w b3dha r7na White Garden, w elmara elli r7na feeha White Garden ana w Nasser kant he elmara elli ent shftni feeha w ana 6al3a, 3shan ketha 3jzt abtsm! Kl shay kan y4krni feeh w kl shay kan y4krni feek w ent t'hz2ni w wjhk a7mr, ma gdrt a6al3 feek Musaab la tloumni!"
Musaab: "ed5li bl mw6'ou3 Judy, ll7een t7beena y3ni wla wsho?!"
Me: "w3! La ma a7ba wla abi ashouf wjha! Mn jdk ts2l hl su2al?"
Musaab: "hatha elli fhamta mn klamk"
I ignored him and continued,
Me: "w youm s2ltni wsh knt aswi m3 Nasser 7sait enk ma tbeeni, madri leesh bs jat bbali hl fkra, w y3ni kna n7ki 3na Musaab akeed bgoul esma bl3'l6!"
Musaab: "w elbagi?"
Me: "ay bagi?"
He remained silent,
Judy: "ana elli mfrou6' as2lk 3n elbagi Musaab, mu gayli mar7 njeeb 6areeh? B3dha byoumen ent elli fat7 elmw6'ou3 w ts2lni 3na!"
Musaab: "l2n t9rufatk mashallah 3leek kant tft7 elnfs elyoum elli gbla, e6'6reet eni as2lk!"
Me: "tdri Musaab, a7yann ajls afkr w a7s eni est3jlt"
Musaab: "est3jlti b wsho?"
Me: "b2ni wafgt 3la el56ba, ma fkrt zeen"
Musaab: "kan 3ndk shahreen, ma fkrti feehum?"
Me: "ma tw83t enk bt56bni!"
Musaab: "wsh tw83ti ajal eni a7akeek WhatsApp bs w a5aweek w atwns 3leek?!"
Me: "atwg3 eni bnt 3mtk, w mafeeha shay etha 7akeet bnt 3mtk, wla la2?"
Musaab: "frg etha kant bnt 3mti hathi a7bha, w etha kant bnt 3mti nfs'ha nfs Alia nfs ay bnt 3ma 3'eerha!" he took a breath, "enti 3'eer"
I remained silent,
Musaab: "e7ki wsh feek skti"
Me: "abi break Musaab a7taj afkr"
Musaab: "tfkreen b wsho?"
Me: "ma fkrt shloun 7yati btkoun etha tzwjtk, a7sni est3jlt mara, madri etha ana 9dg a7bk aw bs a7bk l2nk o5ouy elli eshtgtla bl ftra elli kna safheen b36' feeha"
Musaab: "tshofeeni o5ouk?"
Me: "ent ma knt tshoufni e5t y3ni?"
Musaab: "glteeha, knt" he looked away, "eln6'ra hathi t3'yrt w a6'n wa6'7"
Me: "ent t2kdt Musaab bs ana mafeeh shay 2kdli, a7sni a7taj afkr!"
Musaab: "w km t7tajeen wgt 3shan tfkreen?"
Me: "esbou3een thlatha"
Musaab: "esbou3een thlatha?!" he knotted his eyebrows, "ana msafr hl arb3a2, wdk ketha tkoun a5r jlsa lna gbl ma asafr, w ana gayl lk e7tmal ma arj3 ella elsana eljaya?"
Me: "wsh feeha jlstna? 7mdellah jalseen w gdamna cake w ghwa wla a7la"
I lied, I wasn't happy at all.
Musaab: "Judy mnb jals ankt m3k"
Me: "wla ana!"
Musaab: "keefk ajal"
Me: "la tkbrha y3ni 7mdellah feeh WhatsApp w feeh FaceTime kl shay 9ar sahl!"
Musaab: "3'eer youm n7ki we7na gdam b36'"
Me: "wsh aswi 6yb Musaab!"
Musaab: "wla tsween shay, swi elli yray7k bs w la tfkreen bra7t 3'eerk, azyan 97?"
Me: "y3ni g9d..."
Musaab: "check please!" he looked at one of the waiters,
Me: "Musaab jalsa a7akeek ma 5l9t klami!"
Musaab: "e7ki 6yb wsh feeha etha 7keeti w elfatoura mwjouda, abi adf3 bs"
Me: "la 5la9 mabi a6wl 3leek wa6'7 mst3jl"
Musaab: "bra7tk"
Me: "bs la tloumni w t39b eni glt a7taj wgt afkr feeh, hl shay 3shan m9l7t 3la8tna, mu 3shan atwns"
Musaab: "mu m39b 3shan ketha"
Me: "ajal 3shan wsho?"
Musaab: "l2nk barda, w elwa7d ma ydri shloun y7ki m3ak"
The waiter brought the bell and he paid,
Musaab: "goumi yallah"
Me: "ma abi arj3 m3k, b7aki Raju" I said as I grabbed my phone,
Musaab pulled it from me: "mntb m7akya a7d, ana bw9lk"
Me: "36ni jwali wsh tbi ts7ba ketha!"
Musaab: "blsyara, emshi"
I followed him silently and we went to his car. He turned the engine on and drove off,
Me: "jawali lw sm..."
He gently handed me my phone before I finished my sentence,
Me: "akrhk!"
He ignored me,
Me: "9dg mustfz w mzaji w t7sb en eldnya tmshi 3la keefk!"
Musaab: "shukran"
Me: "la t9eer bard Musaab wa6'7 eni m39ba y3ni la tzeedha 3lay!"
Musaab: "wsh tbeeni agoul lk y3ni?"
Me: "wla shay" I took a breath,
Musaab: "tbeen trou7een mkan gbl ma nrou7 elbeet?"
Me: "nrou7 mkan w ent bhl nfsya?"
Musaab: "3jzt a3rf shloun at9rf m3k"
Me: "a7sn"
Musaab stopped the car aside and turned to face me,
Musaab: "gouleli 6yb wsh elli m6'aygk al7een?"
Me: "wla shay" I didn't look at him,
Musaab: "na6'reeni"
Me: "mabi"
Musaab: "gouleli wsh elli m6'aygk 6yb w gouleli shloun a9l7a, mu lazm tna6'reeni bs ana bsm3k" his tone was so soft that I regretted being so harsh with him,
Me: "mabi Musaab lw sm7t wdeeni elbeet w 36eeni esbou3een afkr feehum zeen, bs a7taj break lw sm7t"
Musaab: "akeed? Ma wdk tgouleen shay?"
Me: "akeed"
Musaab: "6yb, etha kan hl shay byry7k nsweeh, leesh la2"
I was embarrassed. I know that he is so moody, but he's just too sweet, and can't stay mad for too long. He knows how to calm me down and knows how to make me feel better. I wanted to smile but my ego didn't let me,
He took me back home silently and I got in,
Mama smiled: "ha bshri tsam7tu?"
Me: "zdna el6een bla" I fake smiled,
Mama: "afa, leesh?"
Me: "3shan..." I didn't know what to tell her, "madri"
Mama: "mu lazm tgoleen li, mabi akoun el om elli ttd5l been mshakl 3yalha w azwajhum-"
Me: "mnb zoujta!"
Mama: "Allah lhdrja z3lana 3leeh? Wsh mswi bu Fahad?" she laughed,
I didn't reply,
Mama: "bs a36eek n9ee7a, etha feeh shay b eedk tsweena sweeh, la t5rbeen elli beenkum 3shan mshakl ana mt2kda enha ma twdi wla tjeeb, etha sweeti shay y6'ayga e3t4ri, la t5leen elshy6an w kbrya2k yd5loun beenkum, w nfs ma gltlk Musaab w a3rfa, etha 3'l6 b shay by3t4r 7ta lw b3d ftra, ho y65 mn nfsa" she smiled,
Me: "yuma bs a7taj afkr, abi break, ma abi a7akeeh esbou3een ketha, abi nb3d 3n b36' shway 3shan a3rf afkr, please"
Her smile faded,
Mama: "swi elli yray7k, bs Musaab mu msafr b3d km youm?"
Me: "ella, bs 3adi tara, madri shfeekum mkbreenha!"
I went upstairs and found a missed call from my university's admission and enrollment's office number. I called them back and they informed me about my delayed final's date, it was on Thursday, which was only four days away. I switched to WhatsApp to check if I had any message from Musaab but there were none. I felt so guilty but still didn't send him a single message.
I grabbed my book and laptop to view the slides and stared studying for my final. I was already done with a few chapters so I just revised them then studied what I couldn't study when I wasn't feel well.
Two hours passed and I really got bored, I closed the books and turned my laptop off. It was too early to study. I went to take a shower and wiped my makeup off. I changed into my pjs then laid on my bed. I WhatsApped Esraa,
Judy:
Let's catch up tomorrow
You're missing a lot and I feel so lost :(
Esraa:
Well you're missing a lot as well
But too bad I'm not lost :(
What's wrong?
Judy:
We keep fighting it's unreal :p
W kla 3shan Nasser
Amana yswa??
Esraa:
Nasser?
Judy:
I fucked up b3d
Esraa:
Wsh swaiti?
Judy:
I can't tell you everything here
Please come over tomorrow
Can I invite Alia as well wla lssa ma tmoneen
3adi etha la2 mabi elw6'3 y9eer awkward w mujamlat
Esraa:
Ho 3adi bs by9eer awkward beeni w beenha
Y3ni ma a7sni mara amoun
Judy:
5la9 6yb mala da3i
Brou7 lha youm thani
Esraa:
Zeen
Judy:
Shsma
Esraa:
Smi
Judy:
I called him Nasser bl3'l6 :(
Esraa:
A7
Mnjdk?
Judy:
Wallah kna jalseen n7ki 3na
W y3ni he wasn't on my mind at all
Bs madri shloun gltla Nasser
W z3l
Esraa:
Hl mara mar7 agoul lk shay
L2na 9ra7a a7s mn 7ga yz3l
Y3ni lw 56eebi nadani b esm his ex bz3l 6b3n, 7ta lw bl3'l6 bs bt7z b5a6ri mara!
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