Calm Before the Storm: Chapter 24.

Previously:

Musaab:

Aw ymkn wafgti 3lay 3shan tnseena?

Judy:

La wallah?

Musaab:

Jals as2l

Judy:

Wa6'7 en nfsytk t3bana bklmk b3deen

Musaab:

Eeh njls ketha kl shway aklmk b3deen w n7ki b3deen len tgoum elgyama w 7na ma r6'aina

Judy:

Ntfahm b wsho

Kl ma ntfahm tnglb housha

Musaab:

Bukra bmr 3leek w nrou7 mkan ntafhm feeh

Ma agdr a7ki ketha ana

I ignored his message and we reached the spa. I hopped off the car and got in. I left my bag including my phone inside the locker and tried to enjoy my quality time with my mom.

Musaab picked me up the next day and we went to Bateel again, he ordered a slice of cake and Arabic coffee while I only ordered black coffee.

Me: "please Musaab gbl la tbdi, ana abi aw6'7 lk kl shay mn my point mumkn?"

Musaab: "tf6'li" he said avoiding looking at me,

Me: "madri mn ween abda, wsh akthar shay m6'aygk al7een?" I calmly asked,

Musaab: "wsh t7seen enti?" he was a little mad,

Me: "eni nadeetk b esma?" I innocently asked,

He nodded as he fake smiled, then looked away,

Me: "6ayb awal shay" I took a breath, "b7ki bkl 9ra7a w shfafya okay?"

Musaab: "e7ki"

Me: "bl ftra eli kna ma n7aki b36' feeha, knt a7s ena feeh shay feek yj4bni bs madri wsho, knt kl ma ashouf wjhk yjeeni flashback youm t9ar5 3lay b syartk 3shani 6l3t m3 Nasser, w knt a7awl kthr ma agdr eni a9d 3nk, bs 3shan ma abi elshay hatha elli yj4bni lk yt6wr w ymkn blnhaya a6l3 I was only missing you, as a friend 6b3n" I coughed, "b3deen youm drait enk t7bni 7awlt a3'yr el9oura hathi eli bbali, shway knt a5af mnk, w a5af en byoum tjeebli seerta fj2a w hatha elsbb elli 5lani agoul lk please ma njeeb 6areeh bl shoufa"

Musaab: "wsh d5l hatha b enk nadeteeni b esma?" he raised an eyebrow,

Me: "5leeni a5l9, w b3dha r7na White Garden, w elmara elli r7na feeha White Garden ana w Nasser kant he elmara elli ent shftni feeha w ana 6al3a, 3shan ketha 3jzt abtsm! Kl shay kan y4krni feeh w kl shay kan y4krni feek w ent t'hz2ni w wjhk a7mr, ma gdrt a6al3 feek Musaab la tloumni!"

Musaab: "ed5li bl mw6'ou3 Judy, ll7een t7beena y3ni wla wsho?!"

Me: "w3! La ma a7ba wla abi ashouf wjha! Mn jdk ts2l hl su2al?"

Musaab: "hatha elli fhamta mn klamk"

I ignored him and continued,

Me: "w youm s2ltni wsh knt aswi m3 Nasser 7sait enk ma tbeeni, madri leesh bs jat bbali hl fkra, w y3ni kna n7ki 3na Musaab akeed bgoul esma bl3'l6!"

Musaab: "w elbagi?"

Me: "ay bagi?"

He remained silent,

Judy: "ana elli mfrou6' as2lk 3n elbagi Musaab, mu gayli mar7 njeeb 6areeh? B3dha byoumen ent elli fat7 elmw6'ou3 w ts2lni 3na!"

Musaab: "l2n t9rufatk mashallah 3leek kant tft7 elnfs elyoum elli gbla, e6'6reet eni as2lk!"

Me: "tdri Musaab, a7yann ajls afkr w a7s eni est3jlt"

Musaab: "est3jlti b wsho?"

Me: "b2ni wafgt 3la el56ba, ma fkrt zeen"

Musaab: "kan 3ndk shahreen, ma fkrti feehum?"

Me: "ma tw83t enk bt56bni!"

Musaab: "wsh tw83ti ajal eni a7akeek WhatsApp bs w a5aweek w atwns 3leek?!"

Me: "atwg3 eni bnt 3mtk, w mafeeha shay etha 7akeet bnt 3mtk, wla la2?"

Musaab: "frg etha kant bnt 3mti hathi a7bha, w etha kant bnt 3mti nfs'ha nfs Alia nfs ay bnt 3ma 3'eerha!" he took a breath, "enti 3'eer"

I remained silent,

Musaab: "e7ki wsh feek skti"

Me: "abi break Musaab a7taj afkr"

Musaab: "tfkreen b wsho?"

Me: "ma fkrt shloun 7yati btkoun etha tzwjtk, a7sni est3jlt mara, madri etha ana 9dg a7bk aw bs a7bk l2nk o5ouy elli eshtgtla bl ftra elli kna safheen b36' feeha"

Musaab: "tshofeeni o5ouk?"

Me: "ent ma knt tshoufni e5t y3ni?"

Musaab: "glteeha, knt" he looked away, "eln6'ra hathi t3'yrt w a6'n wa6'7"

Me: "ent t2kdt Musaab bs ana mafeeh shay 2kdli, a7sni a7taj afkr!"

Musaab: "w km t7tajeen wgt 3shan tfkreen?"

Me: "esbou3een thlatha"

Musaab: "esbou3een thlatha?!" he knotted his eyebrows, "ana msafr hl arb3a2, wdk ketha tkoun a5r jlsa lna gbl ma asafr, w ana gayl lk e7tmal ma arj3 ella elsana eljaya?"

Me: "wsh feeha jlstna? 7mdellah jalseen w gdamna cake w ghwa wla a7la"

I lied, I wasn't happy at all.

Musaab: "Judy mnb jals ankt m3k"

Me: "wla ana!"

Musaab: "keefk ajal"

Me: "la tkbrha y3ni 7mdellah feeh WhatsApp w feeh FaceTime kl shay 9ar sahl!"

Musaab: "3'eer youm n7ki we7na gdam b36'"

Me: "wsh aswi 6yb Musaab!"

Musaab: "wla tsween shay, swi elli yray7k bs w la tfkreen bra7t 3'eerk, azyan 97?"

Me: "y3ni g9d..."

Musaab: "check please!" he looked at one of the waiters,

Me: "Musaab jalsa a7akeek ma 5l9t klami!"

Musaab: "e7ki 6yb wsh feeha etha 7keeti w elfatoura mwjouda, abi adf3 bs"

Me: "la 5la9 mabi a6wl 3leek wa6'7 mst3jl"

Musaab: "bra7tk"

Me: "bs la tloumni w t39b eni glt a7taj wgt afkr feeh, hl shay 3shan m9l7t 3la8tna, mu 3shan atwns"

Musaab: "mu m39b 3shan ketha"

Me: "ajal 3shan wsho?"

Musaab: "l2nk barda, w elwa7d ma ydri shloun y7ki m3ak"

The waiter brought the bell and he paid,

Musaab: "goumi yallah"

Me: "ma abi arj3 m3k, b7aki Raju" I said as I grabbed my phone,

Musaab pulled it from me: "mntb m7akya a7d, ana bw9lk"

Me: "36ni jwali wsh tbi ts7ba ketha!"

Musaab: "blsyara, emshi"

I followed him silently and we went to his car. He turned the engine on and drove off,

Me: "jawali lw sm..."

He gently handed me my phone before I finished my sentence,

Me: "akrhk!"

He ignored me,

Me: "9dg mustfz w mzaji w t7sb en eldnya tmshi 3la keefk!"

Musaab: "shukran"

Me: "la t9eer bard Musaab wa6'7 eni m39ba y3ni la tzeedha 3lay!"

Musaab: "wsh tbeeni agoul lk y3ni?"

Me: "wla shay" I took a breath,

Musaab: "tbeen trou7een mkan gbl ma nrou7 elbeet?"

Me: "nrou7 mkan w ent bhl nfsya?"

Musaab: "3jzt a3rf shloun at9rf m3k"

Me: "a7sn"

Musaab stopped the car aside and turned to face me,

Musaab: "gouleli 6yb wsh elli m6'aygk al7een?"

Me: "wla shay" I didn't look at him,

Musaab: "na6'reeni"

Me: "mabi"

Musaab: "gouleli wsh elli m6'aygk 6yb w gouleli shloun a9l7a, mu lazm tna6'reeni bs ana bsm3k" his tone was so soft that I regretted being so harsh with him,

Me: "mabi Musaab lw sm7t wdeeni elbeet w 36eeni esbou3een afkr feehum zeen, bs a7taj break lw sm7t"

Musaab: "akeed? Ma wdk tgouleen shay?"

Me: "akeed"

Musaab: "6yb, etha kan hl shay byry7k nsweeh, leesh la2"

I was embarrassed. I know that he is so moody, but he's just too sweet, and can't stay mad for too long. He knows how to calm me down and knows how to make me feel better. I wanted to smile but my ego didn't let me,

He took me back home silently and I got in,

Mama smiled: "ha bshri tsam7tu?"

Me: "zdna el6een bla" I fake smiled,

Mama: "afa, leesh?"

Me: "3shan..." I didn't know what to tell her, "madri"

Mama: "mu lazm tgoleen li, mabi akoun el om elli ttd5l been mshakl 3yalha w azwajhum-"

Me: "mnb zoujta!"

Mama: "Allah lhdrja z3lana 3leeh? Wsh mswi bu Fahad?" she laughed,

I didn't reply,

Mama: "bs a36eek n9ee7a, etha feeh shay b eedk tsweena sweeh, la t5rbeen elli beenkum 3shan mshakl ana mt2kda enha ma twdi wla tjeeb, etha sweeti shay y6'ayga e3t4ri, la t5leen elshy6an w kbrya2k yd5loun beenkum, w nfs ma gltlk Musaab w a3rfa, etha 3'l6 b shay by3t4r 7ta lw b3d ftra, ho y65 mn nfsa" she smiled,

Me: "yuma bs a7taj afkr, abi break, ma abi a7akeeh esbou3een ketha, abi nb3d 3n b36' shway 3shan a3rf afkr, please"

Her smile faded,

Mama: "swi elli yray7k, bs Musaab mu msafr b3d km youm?"

Me: "ella, bs 3adi tara, madri shfeekum mkbreenha!"

I went upstairs and found a missed call from my university's admission and enrollment's office number. I called them back and they informed me about my delayed final's date, it was on Thursday, which was only four days away. I switched to WhatsApp to check if I had any message from Musaab but there were none. I felt so guilty but still didn't send him a single message. 

I grabbed my book and laptop to view the slides and stared studying for my final. I was already done with a few chapters so I just revised them then studied what I couldn't study when I wasn't feel well. 

Two hours passed and I really got bored, I closed the books and turned my laptop off. It was too early to study. I went to take a shower and wiped my makeup off. I changed into my pjs then laid on my bed. I WhatsApped Esraa,

Judy:

Let's catch up tomorrow

You're missing a lot and I feel so lost :(

Esraa:

Well you're missing a lot as well

But too bad I'm not lost :(

What's wrong?

Judy:

We keep fighting it's unreal :p

W kla 3shan Nasser

Amana yswa??

Esraa:

Nasser?

Judy:

I fucked up b3d

Esraa:

Wsh swaiti?

Judy:

I can't tell you everything here

Please come over tomorrow

Can I invite Alia as well wla lssa ma tmoneen

3adi etha la2 mabi elw6'3 y9eer awkward w mujamlat

Esraa:

Ho 3adi bs by9eer awkward beeni w beenha

Y3ni ma a7sni mara amoun

Judy:

5la9 6yb mala da3i

Brou7 lha youm thani

Esraa:

Zeen

Judy:

Shsma

Esraa:

Smi

Judy:

I called him Nasser bl3'l6 :(

Esraa:

A7

Mnjdk?

Judy:

Wallah kna jalseen n7ki 3na

W y3ni he wasn't on my mind at all

Bs madri shloun gltla Nasser

W z3l

Esraa:

Hl mara mar7 agoul lk shay

L2na 9ra7a a7s mn 7ga yz3l

Y3ni lw 56eebi nadani b esm his ex bz3l 6b3n, 7ta lw bl3'l6 bs bt7z b5a6ri mara!

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Calm Before the Storm: Chapter 23.

Previously:

Me: "a3rf kl shay"

Musaab: "mt2kda?"

Me: "feeh shay ma a3rfa?"

Musaab: "madri enti es2li"

Me: "Nasser bye, nklm b36' etha hdaina a7sn ketha abad ma r7 yfeed"

Musaab: "wsh esmi?"

I cleared my throat: "g9di Musaab" then coughed,

I felt my heart flutter and ache so bad,

Musaab: "w tbeeni ma asheel hma?!"

And he hung up before I could even explain, he hung up before hearing my response. I fucked up. I fucked up real bad. I swear to God I wasn't thinking of him, he wasn't even on my mind but Musaab freaking asked about him too much until his name came out of my mouth involuntary. I didn't mean it.

I might thought of Nasser a couple of times after our shoufa shr3iya, but I'm one hundred percent over him. I just never thought it would be this obvious to Musaab. And just to clear everything out, when I used to look at Musaab's face before he confessed, I used to remember that day when he pretended to take me to Baskin Robbins then reproached me so bad in his car, and it reminded me of Nasser all this time, and now that the picture in my head is different, it was so hard to deal with it.

I thought about sending him a message on WhatsApp, but I had no idea what to say,

Judy:

Hey

Tra wallah el36'eem ma kan g9di

W wallah mu bbali la Nasser wla 3'eera

Bs mn kthr ma ts2lni 3na glt esma bl3'l6

Musaab:

Glti esma bl3'l6 3'eer w tnadeeni b esma 3'eer

Wa6'7 meen elli mu gadr ynsa :p

Judy:

Musaab la tfhmni 3'l6

Musaab:

Ma fhamt shay 3'l6

Bs twni astw3b enk ma nsaiteeh

Judy:

Nsaita wallah el36'eem!

Shd3wa Musaab la tz3l mn zlt lsan

Musaab:

6yb

Judy:

Wallah el36'eem zlt lsan

You don't trust me lhdrja?

Musaab:

A7d jab 6ari el trust al7een?

Judy:

Musaab please

He went offline,

Judy:

Talk to me :(

Musaab:

Inshallah

Judy:

Wsh elli inshallah?

Musaab:

Aklmk later 6al3 b3d shway w abi albs

And he went offline again. I hate how hard keeping up with my relationship is becoming. Maybe I should just give up and get over it? I needed a space more than anything. Am I really marrying my ex-best-friend who also happens to be my cousin? I wanted to rethink about how I'm going to live my life with Musaab in the same house after our marriage. If this only us over the phone, then how will we act in real life?

I went to take a hot bath, the only way that works with me whenever I feel sad or annoyed. I just hate it when people get me wrong, and especially when the one I love gets me wrong. Musaab.

An hour passed, two, three, four, and even eight hours passed, and Musaab didn't even send a single message. I checked his last seen and it was eight hours ago, it had the last message he sent's time.

Judy:

Are you ok?

He replied half an hour later,

Musaab:

Yeah I'm out

M3 el3yal aklmk etha rj3t

Tbeen shay?

Judy:

La

He read my message and ignored it. I wanted to fight with him so bad but I just locked my phone and threw it on the floor.

Me: "effffffff!" I annoyingly shouted,

 My mom opened the door,

Mama: "bsmallah wsh feek, 9ar shay?!"

Me: "wla shay"

Mama: "a7d yrmi eljwal ketha? W etha enksr?"

Me: "3la zg"

Mama: "klmeeni 3dl, omk ana mub 9deegtk!”

Me: "asfa, bs mt6'ayga shway w abi anam"

I quickly tucked myself in bed and hid my face with the blanket,

Mama: "9li 9lat rbk w nami, mafi noum bla 9lat"

Me: "inshallah"

Mama: "goumi al7een, w erf3i jwalk mn elar6' bukra etha enksr 97ti tbeen jdeed"

Me: "inshallah"

Mama: "wsh 9ayr?"

Me: "wla shay"

Mama: "g9i 3la 3'eeri"

Me: "wla shay yuma bs mt'hawsha m3 w7da"

Mama: "mt'hawsha m3 Musaab?"

I remained silent,

Mama: "eeh wa6'7 a9ln, ma r7 t39been ketha 3shan w7da mn elbnat"

I didn't reply,

Mama: "76i rask w nami, bs etha enti 3'l6ana e3t4ri w etha ho 3'l6an by3t4r, bs la tsheleen hm, kl shay by9'b6 inshallah, mshakl ftrt el56ouba 6bee3ya"

You know nothing, mom.

Me: "thneena 3'l6"

Mama: "w thab7kum elkbrya2 m7d ybi y3t4r, 97?"

Me: "madri"

Mama: "hatha akbr dleel enk tkabreen"

Me: "yuma bnam tkfain mali 5lg asoulf"

Mama: "9li awal, el9lat try7k"

Me: "inshallah"

Mama: "mu ams gayltli btrou7een el spa?"

Me: "ma 7jazt"

Mama: "5la9 ana adg al7een a7jz nrou7 bukra ana wnti shrayk?"

I forced a smiled: "zeen"

Mama: "Allah yshr7 9drk 7beebt mama" I smiled at her as she kissed my forehead and left,

I got up to pick my phone up and I saw a simple scratch on the top of the screen,

Me: "shit!" I whispered to myself,

I left my phone and prayed, brushed my teeth, tucked myself under my bedsheets and slept.

I woke up the next day to the sound of my mom waking me up,

Mama: "Judy, 7jazt elsa3a 1:30 goumi"

Me: "km elsa3a al7een?"

Mama: "12:30"

Me: "haw yuma badri"

Mama: "mu badri, goumi la t5b9een nomk elejaza klha esbou3en"

Me: "zeen"

Mama: "7keeti m3 Musaab?"

Me: "la2"

Mama: "6yb goumi yallah, ant6'rk t7t bagoul l Kelly t9l7 lna f6our"

I got up and went to the bathroom, I washed up, prayed, changed my clothes, then unlocked my phone to check if Musaab sent anything,

Musaab:

Judy

Nmti?

The messages were sent at 3 AM,

Judy:

Eeh knt nayma

Hala?

I left my phone on the bedside table and went downstairs to have breakfast with my mom,

Me: "ween Faisal w baba?"

Mama: "y9loun eljum3a"

Me: "wait elyoum jum3a, mafi gathering?!"

Mama: "bnsweela skip 3shank"

Me: "Allah wsh 9ayr bl dnya!"

Mama: "shfti shloun? Traha mara wa7da bl sana bs, la tt2mleenha kl mara, w etha 5l9na mn elspa bdri bnrou7 lhm"

Me: "mala da3i nrou7"

Mama: "lh da3i w n9, la ta54een wjh"

Me: "sorry nsait ena shay mu8ds 3ndk"

Mama: "a3outh bellah wsho mu8ds, bs lazm marra bl esbou3 njtm3 klna"

Me: "okay, etha 5l9na"

Mama: "7ta lw bl maghrib"

Me: "inshallah"

We finished our breakfast and I went upstairs again to wear my Abaya and grab my bag to leave. My mom and I both got in the car and Raju drove off. I checked my phone to see if Musaab replied to my message,

Musaab:

Ma wdk ntfahm?

Judy:

Ent ma wdk?

Musaab:

:)

Judy:

What?

Musaab:

Elyoum 3ugb el3'da ana wyak bn6l3

Zeen?

Judy:

I'm not coming

Musaab:

Since when it's okay to skip family gatherings?

Judy:

Since today

My mom and I aren't coming

Musaab:

3sa ma shr leeh?

Judy:

3ndna mw3d etha 5l9na bdri jeena

Musaab:

Mw3d wsho

Judy:

Spa

Musaab:

Wgta y3ni?

Judy:

Mama 7jzt, I couldn't say no

Musaab:

6yb mta?
Mani m6wl ana bsafr b3d agl mn esbou3 w abi atfahm m3k

Judy:

Elyoum magdr 6yb

Musaab:

Judy

Judy:

Hala 

Musaab:

9dg wdk nfs5 56oubtna?

Judy:

?

Musaab:

Enti ams tgoleen

Judy:

Etha ma r7 tt3'yr eeh abi nfs5

Glt lk million mara mani mst3da a3eesh m3 wa7d y4krni bl ma6'i kl shway

Get over it ya5i

W etha mu gadr simply tzwj w7da thanya malha ma6'i etha hl shay byry7k

Musaab:

Mafi a7d mala ma6'i

Enti bnfsk you didn't get over him

Ams tnadeeni Nasser ajal? 😂

Judy:

I got over him mn zman

Musaab:

Wa6'7

Judy:

Wsh aswi 3shan t9dgni y3ni?!

Musaab:

Act like it

Judy:

Wsh swait a9ln 3'eer eni glt esma bl3'l6!?

Mn kthr ma t7ki 3na w ts2lni 3na zl lsani

Musaab la t9eer m3gd ketha t4b7ni wallah

Musaab:

Ana m3gd al7een?

Judy:

La ts2lni 3n Nasser abd lw sm7t

Musaab:

3shan ma tfkreen feeh?

Judy:

Ana ma afkr feeh a9ln

Musaab:

Ma tfkreen feeh?

Judy:

Wla y6ra 3la bali

It's been almost two years I'm not that emotional

Etha ma nsaita ma kan wafgt 3laik 76 hl shay bbalk

Musaab:

Aw ymkn wafgti 3lay 3shan tnseena?

Judy:

La wallah?

Musaab:

Jals as2l

Judy:

Wa6'7 en nfsytk t3bana n7ki b3deen

Musaab:

Eeh ejlsi ketha kl ma jeena n7ki glti aklmk b3deen w n7ki b3deen leen tgoum elgyama w 7na ma r6'aina

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